I think I′ve stayed for the last time, goodbye Hope is so much closer to beauty than sorrow I think I′ll leave and leave self pity to die Reflection is always brighter than shadow
Please come closer Cause I don′t even touch you anymore Please see I′m walking in to the eye of the storm And I′ll still come out loving you even more
Love is in the air tonight So just breathe
You made sure the atmosphere was thick tonight So this is where it begins and where it ends With a crack in a dark sky piercing light
Please come closer Cause my heart doesn′t touch yours anymore Please see I′m walking into the eye of the storm And I′ll still come out loving you even more
Love is in the air tonight so just breathe Breathe my spirit breathe Love is in the air tonight so just breathe Breathe my spirit breathe
leave, leave now and don′t look back leave, leave now and don′t you look back
Please come closer Cause I don′t even touch you anymore
Please see I′m walking in to the eye of the storm And I′ll still come out loving you even more
Please come closer Cause my heart doesn′t touch yours anymore
Please see I′m walking in to the eye of the storm And I′ll still come out loving you even more
He′s scared Her ship arrived and came in yesterday The darkest side of Houston′s finest day You fell alseep, my love And i fantasize That the wind blew harder than it ever did This song we started, will it ever end You fell alseep again
Well goodbye With shaking hands I dropped it instantly Then kicked the phone and stood invincibly Oh, then started to cry But i′m twenty now And I wanna see my nineteenth year again Hold on to me, you are the closest thing i′ve ever had To a real friend To a real friend, friend, friend
I could not lie Skin untouched growing thicker for every step unwalked And I don′t know if it′s the cold intention-slide Taking me down
But what if you′d sing me alive I′m ready to give up the fight ′Cause I′m just a stone Right after you′re gone Right after you′re gone Right after you′re gone
I could not lie Even though dead skin like stone makes me ugly It still pounds inside and it′s red And it′s slipping through the grey cracks And I know you know
But what if you′d sing me alive I′m ready to give up the fight ′Cause I′m just a stone Right after you′re gone Right after you′re gone Right after you′re gone
But what if you′d sing me alive I′m ready to give up the fight Cause I′m just a stone Right after you′re gone Right after you′re gone Right after you′re gone
But what if you′d sing me alive I′m ready to give up the fight ′Cause I′m just a stone Right after you′re gone Right after you′re gone Right after you′re gone
The first thing that meets the eye When I crossover into the light I want it to be you Right after I′m gone Right after I′m gone Right after I′m gone
Vattnet svart varm nattbris viskar Att jag ar naken och ny
Water black As the moon is full Warm nightbreeze whispers I′m naked and new
I know you′re always throwing kisses from the sky Well, tonight I caught one Sixteen years old I dare to swim further out I know you′re always throwing kisses from the sky Well, tonight I caught one
Som om man kunde Vidrora lycka Jag virar den runt mig Som en filt Det ar bara Du, jag och manen
Like joy was something you could touch I wrap it around me Like a blanket It′s just you, me and the moon
I know you′re always throwing kisses from the sky Well, tonight I caught one Sixteen years old I dare to swim further out I know you′re always throwing kisses from the sky Well, tonight I caught one
It′s the smallest things That have a tendency to hurt for the longest time It′s like you found a way inside
But this time I′m not going to follow you down I′ll fall in love with the sound (I′m not going to follow you down) So push me back and I′ll stay the same (I′m not going to follow you down) And fall in love with the sound of silence
I′m armed but the gun is not loaded I guess I could find my way out of this But it′s like you found a way inside And I hate that I suspect you′re right
But this time I′m not going to follow you down I′ll fall in love with the sound (I′m not going to follow you down) So push me back and I′ll stay the same (I′m not going to follow you down) And fall in love with the sound of silence
Silence is golden but golden teeth are so much sharper It′s not easy but I′m biting my tongue off It′s not easy but I′m biting my tongue off It′s not easy but I′m biting my tongue off It′s not easy but I′m biting my tongue off
Even though you′re right Your words lie Even though you′re right Your words lie
But this time I′m not going to follow you down I′ll fall in love with the sound (I′m not going to follow you down) So push me back and I′ll stay the same (I′m not going to follow you down) And fall in love with the sound of silence
Innertube sunset With a kiss and a cigarette You′re better than any midnight sex I can′t stop cause if feels too good I won′t stop but I know I should Believe me I′m not always on a serious side.
[Chorus] Cause I can make you laugh, if he makes you scream If he breaks you, tell me everything Cause here we are alone again Libby I′m listening Cause I can make you laugh, if he makes you scream If he breaks you, tell me everything Cause here we are alone again Libby I′m listening
It′s hard to fill the empty space When they′re your prayers Your love, your fucking grace Closed eyed sleeping face to face Sweet girl with such a tender taste
[Repeat Chorus]
Libby, I just want to, listen to you...please!
[Repeat Chorus]
Libby I′m...Libby I′m listening to you. Libby Un...Libby unwind. Libby I′m...Libby I′m listening to you. Libby Un...Libby Unwind.
We talked Together sharpening the knife Like killing partners for a life Hey we can hide the bodies on the ride home
Now here we are We′re licking skin to wipe us clean Strike a match, pour gasoline Ditch the scene and watch this city burn Asleep, my life will be a pillow steering wheel turn
I′ll be reaching for the stars with you (honey) Who cares if no one else believes So I, set fire to everyone around But I told you I told you I told you
So ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha Yeah we walk
We Drive To leave the past and clear the mind to watch the sunset set its time I swear you′ll find I′m your ride home
Now close your eyes its′ getting dark and the highways clear No sign of life from front to rear Its just you my dear On the ride home We′re going home
I′ll be reaching for the stars with you (honey) Who cares if no one else believes So I, set fire to everyone around But I told you I told you I told you
So ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha Yeah we walk
We talked Together sharpening a knife Like killing partner for a life Hey we can hide the bodies on the ride home Cause we′re going home
I′ll be reaching for the stars with you (honey) Who cares if no one else believes So I, set fire to everyone around But I told you I told you I told you
So ha ha ha ha (we walk) ha ha ha ha (oh yeah we walk) ha ha ha ha (we walk) ha ha ha ha Yeah we walk Yeah we walk
Relapse Prevent trigger intent Now drown High strung Say X amount of words
You′re solar, bipolar Panic disorder Seems harder and harder and harder Still you try to control it
You mold, you mold Yeah you shape to mold Oh you′re bold you′re bold But your shape is bold
You′re a symptom superficial To what they call knowing you Minus the speed, Could you imagine the phobia?
Your brain is faulty wiring the reason for tiring Keep treating the curse, Imagine the worst Systematic, sympathetic Quite pathetic, apologetic, paramedic Your heart is prosthetic
A plate of quite peculiar On a dish of my own A tablespoon of feather tickle me to the bone Give me recipes for happy with the chemicals gone Drinking freedom from a bottle to the tune of belong
I′m sick of shaking never waking from the hell I achieve I never knew you till you left me with the crying disease
Another curing, reassuring way to buckle the knees So mistreated, I repeated Never blessing your sneeze
Now deleted and defeated I will stand on my own Yeah your memory that punches me has broken the bone
Give me recipes for sorry I′m admitting I′m wrong Still your memory that punches me has broken the bone
Tempting life Won′t come and beg for the last time It′s already ours we just came here to claim it And we are not paying a dime In the street you′ll find us Vulnerable but lit up like a cigarette Celebarating thankxmas Without a regret
Can′t buy this freedom With another slogan With another lie
Can′t buy this freedom With another gadget Buy or die
So what do you say, let′s stay And not run away You can′t buy this freedom With another slogan With another lie
Tempting lie I feel like houseclimbing Down the street Newfound freedom Making wings grow out of my feet In these streets we live In these streets we die Fear is expensive And freedom is so free that it′s hard to buy
Can′t buy this freedom With another slogan With another lie
Can′t buy this freedom With another gadget Buy or die
So what do you say, let′s stay And not run away You can′t buy this freedom With another slogan With another lie
Yeah, Yeah
Can′t buy this freedom With another slogan With another lie
Can′t buy this freedom With another gadget Buy or die
So what do you say, let′s stay And not run away You can′t buy this freedom With another slogan With another lie
I lost a piece of me in you; I think I left it in your arms. I forget the reasons I got scared, But remember that I cared quite a lot.
You see but lately I′ve been on my own. Yeah one, but one by choice. You see, thats a first for me, There′s only me, yeah theres only me, And now I realize for once, It′s just me. It′s just me. It′s just me, And I′ll find a way to make it, There′s noone left to stop me. Here I go. Can we take it from the top?
So why so long? So sad, I wanna be strong. Don′t try to take this from me. I′m already spent living half my life undone So why so long? So sad, I wanna be strong. Don′t try to take this from me. I′ve already spent my life living half undone.
I′ve been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again. I′ve been finding out that I have what this world calls friends. I′ve tried to push them all away, They push me back and wanna stay And that′s one good thing I have.
I′m gonna feel a peace in me, I′m gonna feel at home. I′m gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone. I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor. I don′t wanna hurt no more.
Yeah it′s just me. It′s just me And i′ll find a way to make it. There′s noone left to stop me. Here i go, can we take it from the top?
So why so long? So sad, I wanna be strong. Don′t try to take her from me. I′ve already spent my life living half undone.
So why so long? So sad, i wanna be strong. Don′t try to take her from me. I′ve already spent my life living half undone.
I used to be the one who won before. I used to smile but dont no more. I′m living just to watch it all go by.
Last night Stopping by Greeting me with an embracing bad breath Five A.M. you woke me out of a restless R.E.M. I think it′s time To sober up and die
Now every little second is time And every word seems to rhyme I follow every word like streetlights To make it home all right
Yeah
Now every little second just flies I hold on to them like paradise I follow every word like streetlights I, I want to fall in love and leave tonight
Been riding in the sunset Ignoring what follows after beauty Fades to black now Just riding in the sunset Now this paralyzing cold Always comes crawling back I think it′s time To sober up and live
Now every little second is time And every word seems to rhyme I follow every word like streetlights To make it home all right
Yeah
Now every little second just flies I hold on to them like paradise I follow every word like streetlights I, I want to fall in love and leave tonight
Every little second is time And every word seems to rhyme I follow every word like streetlights To make it home all right
Now every little second just flies I hold on to them like pieces of paradise I follow every word like streetlights I, I want to fall in love and leave tonight
Been waiting and now you′re sinking slow Been watching how you rated me low You say water is supposed to be brown I say there′s garbage in the fountain Yeah Taste and swallow, swallow down swallow down, swallow down Yeah Been wanted for thinking slow Now you′ve been longing for an open window Get out throw out You′re thirsty no doubt Yeah Taste and swallow, swallow down swallow down, swallow down swallow down, swallow down Taste and swallow, swallow down swallow down, swallow down swallow down, swallow down Taste and swallow, swallow down swallow down, swallow it down
You and me we should get out of this town tonight Cause everywhere I put my foot down It′s just another concrete block waiting for me
And it′s a... (dark cold night now) And it′s a... (dark cold night)
My spirit is freezing to ice in this heat
Could you turn around and say Hooray, it′s a beautiful day L.A. (yeah come on) But now it′s time To pack your bags and go Hooray it′s a beautiful day L.A. But I think I′ll be gone today
I′ve been traveling at the speed of gasoline And stopped by the color of electricity We′ve been trying for too long To cover up his fingerprints From a distant past
And it′s a... (dark cold night now) And it′s a... (dark cold night)
My spirit is freezing to ice in this heat
Could you turn around and say Hooray, it′s a beautiful day L.A. (yeah come on) But now it′s time To pack your bags and go Hooray it′s a beautiful day L.A. But I think I′ll be gone today
And it′s a... (damned cold night now) And it′s a... (damned cold night now) My spirit is freezing to ice in this heat
Could you turn around and say Hooray, it′s a beautiful day L.A. (yeah come on) But now it′s time To pack your bags and go Hooray it′s a beautiful day L.A. But I think I′ll be gone today
i thought about fire in the sky I thought about fire I thought about love burning in your eye I thought about fire
I thought about fire in the sky I thought about fire I thought about love burning in your eye I thought about fire
It hurts That drops of fire would fall so precise And how everything else would lose its meaning What a beautiful What a painful surprise There is no peace outside if there is nothing within It hurts But like coming home Once dried up I guess this is what you get When a heart expands
I thought about fire in the sky I thought about fire I thought about love burning in your eye I thought about fire
Love is destructive For the ego And your voice is the only thing That speaks rebelliously in this world of claiming your own There is no peace outside if there′s nothing within Love is addictive For the spirit And your voice whispers with a roar That fire rises up, refills Place the right king on the throne
I thought about fire in the sky I thought about fire I thought about love burning in your eye I thought about fire
I thought about fire in the sky I thought about fire I thought about love burning in your eye I thought about fire
I thought about a burning fire I thought about a love in fire I thought about your love, yeah I thought about your love
I thought about a burning fire I thought about a love in fire I thought about your love I thought about your love
I thought about a burning fire I thought about a love in fire I thought about your love I thought about your love
I thought about a burning fire I thought about a burning fire I thought about your love I thought about your love
As soon as you stepped through my door, I saw You for the first time all over again. And time well spent seems Lonelier than the way it used to go.
As I smell you for the first time all over again I′ll begin to remember to be alive So if you don′t mind I think I′ll wear my heart on my sleeve, ′Cause I′m tired of not being able to bleed.
All of us are searching for an open arm. Well, it′s a shame how I curl up in the dark When it′s the same old word giving me the spark. All of us are searching for an open arm. Well, it′s a shame how I curl up in the dark
I′ve felt a loss for some time I slipped, stumbled, but fell face first straight into your hand. Then I hit my head on your palm And waking up to the smell Of tears drying up in the sand
All of us are searching for an open arm. Well, it′s a shame how I curl up in the dark When it′s the same old word giving me the spark. All of us are searching for an open arm. Well, it′s a shame how I curl up in the dark
I washed my wounds with tears of hope. I washed my wounds with tears of hope. I just ...
All of us are searching for an open arm Well, it′s a shame how I pull myself apart. When it′s the same words making me run for cover to your arms.
(All of us are searching for an open arm) When it′s the same words making me run for cover to your arms. (All of us are searching for an open arm) (All of us are searching for an open arm)
Mr. Blue′s Menu As she waits my table And she smiles when able from the inside
And who would′ve thought a cup of coffee Would make my legs unstable Shaking Under the table Must be stagefright
And would it really phase me If I had all the toys of All the clumsy boys for you And would it really kill you If you would try to have a good time Instead of screwing up mine Like you usually do
Im in Love
Brings a cup of coffee as she sits down slowly Now the chair is holy From the inside And who would′ve thought that a cup of coffee Would make my legs unstable Shaking Under the table Must be stagefright
I ended the book that I′m writing. The part about you I′m tearing it out. A simple goodnight, stop fighting, There′s nothing left to even read about. I′m leaving you here my darling, to search for a better and easy way out. Through all of the pain that I′m causing, There′s nothing left to even sing about And it goes......
Recorded Italian radio. I changed up the words to make you happy though. In front of the midnight music chow, I beat up, I beat up the boy that made her happy though
I′ve noticed the things that you wanted me to be. They outweigh the ones that make me happy. So pull out your hand to meet my...my fine new lady, She′s rock n′ roll, and she saved me. And it goes....
Losing my control Here it is the day I have to go Just sit beside me I can’t let this show How sick I feel to leave you so alone God I’m terrified
We’ve lost respect for decency When one can turn our world into an ant pile We run circles, no direction do I see The dust has blinded you, the dust has blinded me
I kissed her on the cheek And then I waved goodbye She had the saddest look I’ve seen in years A kangaroo cry A warm pathetic ocean flow we have to live by We have to live by Because we have to live
Chorus And you choose to break our families Tell me you’ve used all precautions known And I’ll stand beside the ones who stood alone How long will we have to sing until you finally bring our sons, our daughters home? We’ll let the prayers start healing, what time’s been stealing
We only want to feel as close as we can be Use hands for holding on to your precious family Just believe in all who shine The light to help you see Cause if I believe in you, will you believe in me?
I kissed her on the cheek And then I waved goodbye She had the saddest look I’ve seen in years A kangaroo cry A warm pathetic ocean flow we have to live by We have to live by Because we have to live
Chorus
Keep hanging on Keep hanging on Keep hanging on Keep hanging on
We’ll let the prayers start healing, when time’s been stealing Start healing Start healing
Kneel down Close your eyes Hit the ground I want you to, to kneel all day Alone in this desolate cave So I said Scream if you want to Cause no one is around I want you to To scream all day Cause there′s eleven words that I′ve rehearsed to say
And I say How I love to hate you! [repeat]
You′re not so brave When I′m the snake And you′re my prey Let me tell you I′ll eat all day Alone in this desolate cave So I say Squeal if you want to Cause no no one is around I want you to To squeal all day Cause there′s eleven words that I′ve rehearsed to say
And I say How I love to hate you! [repeat] James, how I love to hate you Oh, how I love How I love to hate you...
I′m like a storm cloud eager when you go out Calm again I′ll ask permission for the wrong to win Drop the bomb and get your story out and get it on In a haze the beginning of your days Gonna fall down Got to get back up but at your own pace Got to fill your cup and find the way Out of your own maze Yeah boy what you said now
And hide the rule book throw it in the waste Look strong Like you belong cause you do belong Whether right or wrong you belong
I′m on your side if you fail atleat you tried To keep your aching celebrating wonder making heart alive Yeah and pride don′t keep it all inside Don′t keep your aching celebrating wonder making heart alone Write you own song
Whatever happened to our inner glow Whatever happened to the song the soul the me i used to know Whatever happened to my radio Whatever happened to my song It is my song
So here′s a preview shove it under old-new Or call it rock or pop or bach or fuck Goddamn where did we go wrong Now there′s a catergory for every song
Yeah we only want to sing when we want to Yeah we only want a dream we can flaunt to Yeah we only want to fly by the side making love to the rhythm be a jeckyl and a hyde Yeah we only want a field we can run through Yeah we only want a beat we can drum to Yeah we only want to fly by the side making love to the rhythm be a jeckyl and a hyde
So stride if you fail atleast you tried To keep your aching celebrating wonder making heart alive And pride don′t keep it all inside Don′t keep your aching celebrating wonder making heart alone Write your own song
Whatever happened to our inner glow Whatever happened to the song the soul the me i used to know Whatever happened to my radio Whatever happened to the song
Gonna wake up strong ya we′re all gonna wake up strong...
If I can′t crawl inside of you, I′m laughing with a broken face I stumble across my self esteem. But to picture the pleasure is making me want my space.
Understand... that God wrapped you like a bow. But in my head... There′s some shelves that need cleaning, from basement to ceiling, control.
If what you′re seeing is an open book, that′s great ′cause I′m an open book. But I′m real shy.
There′s a part of me seeking and desperately needing to open up. That′s strange ′cause I′m an open book, a confused boy.
I′m an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people. My heart while in its cage, give and not receive a thing, But the only funny thing is that I don′t know how to give myself advice.
I′ve got this post dramatic thing I′ve got this tattoo of a ring that lies around my wedding finger and that′ss where I want to state this claim. That I′ve got to learn to live and dream before I go and get myself in love.
In love.
Before, before, before I go and get myself in love
There′s Zoloft, Welbutrin, there′s Paxil that′s proven, no side effects. But the rest left unnamed ′cause they worked like a charm on me.
But when your saving is drying, you can′t stop from crying you′ve got to suck it up. You′re not her buttercup, you′re not her favorite book.
And I am an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people. My heart while in its cage, give and not receive a thing, But the only funny thing is that I don′t know how to give myself advice.
I′ve got this post dramatic thing I′ve got this tattoo of a ring that lies around my wedding finger and thats where I want to state this claim. That I′ve got to learn to live and dream before I go and get myself in love.
In love.
Before, before, before I go and get myself in love
A heartbeat skip, relationship Inside a bubble bath An icing drip below your lip So we undo the math A sudden slip between My pathetic sedatives A real-life script of how Mistakes became our medicine, so
Delay the hurtful words Of complicated overcast Please take the message that I′m Picking up my chin at last I said my confidence It gets stronger when you′re next to me But we pray from miles away In quest for what we long to be
I might crumble, I might take a fall again (Still missing you) I might crumble, I might take a fall again (Still missing you) I might crumble, I might take a fall again But you′re my everlasting friend Everlasting friend
A heartbeat skip, relationship So we would stay up late A teardrop drip below your lip Beside the airport gate A sudden slip from where We used to be a year ago A real-life script of how Our hands would hold and not let go
But delay the mournful words Of complicated overcast Please take the message That you taught me how to live at last But I said my confidence It gets stronger when you′re next to me But we wave respect goodbye In quest for what we long to be, but
I might crumble, I might take a fall again (Still missing you) I might crumble, I might take a fall again (Still missing you) I might crumble, I might take a fall again But you′re my everlasting friend
Will you be coming home? (Everlasting friend) My everlasting friend, will you be coming home? (Everlasting friend)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again (Still missing you) I might crumble, I might take a fall again (Still missing you) I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again I might crumble, I might take a fall again I might crumble, I might take a fall again I might crumble, I might take a fall again I just want to know that you′ll be coming home I just want to know that you′ll be coming home I just want to know that you′ll be coming home I just want to know that you′ll be coming home
I changed my color for you I shed my coat with caution I lack the beauty you display See here there are the bruises And some were self-inflicted And some showed up along the way So i nod my head Im ready for the world to see The secret i kept here inside the man you thought id be Slip into coma calm The coma where i calm myself down Here comes excuses why i let you down
Stand by for another breakdown Sound off the alarm Is this the chameleon boy i swore i wouldnt become Chameleon boy Chameleon boy
So now weve come upon the hardest thing ive ever done Its telling you that im a mess What sort of mess i mean Is self-destructive gasoline The kind that strips you of your best And while i play insteadthe way that most would end up dead You sleep alone at home and wish that i was in our bed With this im telling you My color changes back to blue How do i ask you this Will you help me through
Stand by for another breakdown Sound off the alarm Is this the chameleon boy i swore i wouldnt become Stand by for another breakdown Sound off the alarm Is this the chameleon boy i swore i wouldnt become Chameleon boy Chameleon boy
I try to think of all the people i look up to Or growing up who would i be Now the twisted part Whered all my idols end up They all passed away Passed away
Stand by Its chameleon boy Stand by Its chameleon boy Chameleon Boy I′m chameleon boy... Chameleon boy...
I haven′t been quite the same So sure the story of my life would never change In a bright eyed way Rinsed out the soap in my eyes and wrote a song that I′m about to sing It′s about a girl That I hardly even know It′s not another love song Just a list of things that I should know every man should know that...
[Chorus] One: You′ve got to take it kind of slowly Two: You′ve got to hurry up and make your move Three: You′ve got to tell her that she′s pretty Four: You′ve got to be the perfect gentelman When you shake the walls, you′ve got to make ′em bend Yeah you′re got to show her thats she′s pretty She′s so pretty You′re the balance beam And I keep falling all around this fairy tale.
We took a walk in the rain My suggestion, she requested The park nearby to cast the shade Stay cool but I′m giddy like a school boy You′ve got to handle with care this is not a toy Gradually we touched Though our clothes were wet We sat and smiled I never thought I′d smile so much The first kiss always says the most
[Repeat Chorus] Every man should know that [Repeat Chorus]
OO this fairy tale OO this fairy tale Some kind of fairy tale. Some kind of fairy tale.
Have you ever been so lonely, No one there to hold? Pull me in or disown me, And then climb inside. My arms are open wide. Have a look inside.
It is not that I am scared to learn, Why I′m empty inside. hold my hand or show some concern, If I live or die. My eyes are open wide. Help me look inside.
I hear the water drip from the faucet. It′s sweetly falling in tune. I′m gently closing the closet. I fall to the floor, and crawl to my room. The thought of ending it soon... Just let me sleep in my room.
Hear me cry! cry! cry! I hear a knock at the front door. Don′t come in! I try to look at you But I can′t stop shaking. Leave me alone. Just go away. Mother I′m so scared.
Empty bed and all of the sheets are gone, They′re wrapped around me and you. All is quiet but the drop of a gun. I want to belong...to someone... But maybe life′s not for everyone
I feel that it′s hard enough to say good-bye. I feel there′s the water. Should I sink or dive? An empty plate, fill up my sentimental morning star. I steal the art of putting truth in a lie. I still want the girl that really caught my eye. But, she lives in Oklahoma City, far away from me. An empty hope chest. Quit the dope quest, And remain independently happy
I deal with the fact that I′ve forgotten the worst. I feel that my social behavior may seem somewhat unrehearsed. Another page, A sullen rage, And I′ll be back to my normal self.
And I′m finally happy...happy... independently happy...
I drive to the edge of my considerate plain. I apologize to the people I hurt on the way. I wipe the slate clean I kick the daydream, And remain independently happy.
Blue does Everything I’ve never seen before Blue does everything I’ve never seen before
She’s the answer to the prayer I hadn’t found She’s the answer to the silence…she’s my sound Oh what a girl Oh what a beautiful girl …..she is
Blue does Everything I’ve never seen before Blue does everything I’ve never seen before
She’s the answer to the prayer I hadn’t found She’s the answer to the silence…she’s my sound Oh what a girl Oh what a beautiful girl …..she is Oh what a girl Oh what a beautiful girl …..she is
Here alone, standing barefoot in our lawn, Worms squeezing their way through my toes Tonight that’s how it goes. I’m at your window kneeling quiet, I thought at least I’d maybe try to get your head right Your heart right “Let him go!”
Then through the glass I see your dress fall to the floor As he embraces every inch of you The woman I adore. I can’t believe the way you’re bending Can’t believe this neverending moaning asking him for more Begging him for more
How far will I go To make it feel right? “Come home” I have to fix this on my own
Replace my heart, Cause I’m convinced mine broke the day I let us end Replace my heart, I don’t wanna live by coping, I’m done with hoping…..end
I creeped in close enough to see the way he touched her, From her feet across her knees, inside her sweetest spot he pleased and pleased her. I turned around and tried to take control, but no control was capable It was a centerfold of how less than low can possibly go.
I squeezed the life into my brain Like pushing knives into a vein I’ve gotta get, I said I’ve gotta get inside So to the back window I crawl in silent standing in the darkness Of my living room This used to be my home
How far will I go To make it feel right? “Come home” I’m moving forward to the bedroom door
Replace my heart Cause I’m convinced mine broke the day I let us end Replace my heart I don’t wanna live by coping, I’m done with hoping…end
I turn the doorknob with two fingers to be slow Enough to sneak into the room among the corner darkness gloom I had to see this happening. He pushed himself so deep inside her clapping rang and bounced off every wooden walled room And that’s when all went silent blank except for the color red As I walked calmly numbing paralyzed beside the bed I said “I know I’m not allowed to be here. I just had to see How good this new man really fucks you. Cause you both been fucking me.”
“So now I planned this last thing you can both do as a pair I tie both blindfolds tight around your fucking eyes to blind your stare I don’t want to alarm you, but I figured we could end this in what seems easy quick and painless Man, so I’ll get down to business I choose you first, there’s a gun, its at your head So laugh at me just one more time but put your face inside the bed You sit and watch me while I do this shit and learn from what I’ve said.” I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger, and all I saw was red
How far will I go to Make it feel right? "Come home" I have to fix this on my own
Then the screaming oh the screaming It’s nice to see you scared Of such a weak and stupid husband Who knows you never really cared I’ll leave you with a question that I need to hear from your head Was all this worth it knowing you have just seconds left to live?
Now think about your answer, laying face down on the bed I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger and all I saw was red I gently stroke her arm as she lies lifeless on her back Then placed the barrel in my mouth All I saw was black.
I see your heart beat through the bedsheets I feel your pulse against the floor I sleep the sadness that no one else sleeps Feel me cunningly adore.
As the tic tock clock lies Goldilocks What a sick enchanted view Of the white blot sin that we all began not the girl that I once knew.
Blue Sunshine Ive got no vacancies At the top of the clock was Jesus spying on me I spoke of friends point me which direction I tried a bribe of when I die but swore he never mentioned.
Stop staring, you’re the reason I feel so unhappy all the time I’ve given you everything I know how Your standing on the top of my shoe keeping me from gaining ground I’m sorry if you feel like I let you down
Can you tell me what have I done so wrong To you Tell me what am I supposed to do
“I should be loved by you, That I know is true But I cant breathe when you’re around!”
“I should be held at night That I know is right But I cant breathe when you’re around!”
You’re too scared, Scared of all of it …I get that feeling I’m talking to the wall Can you hear me at all My world was shaking my mind was quaking, my heart kept breaking I threw it against the wall Can anyone feel me at all
Can you tell me what have I done so wrong... to you Tell me what am I supposed to do I got a feeling, you’re falling out of love with me Tell me who am I supposed to be
“I should be loved by you That I know is true I can’t breathe when you’re around!”
“I should be held at night That I know is right I cant breathe when you’re around!! Look I can’t breath!”
By the way By your side I′ll stay If that′s okay Then by your side I′ll stay forever Here I am standing up Because I want to fall in love with you
A sunless day It was a clumsy card house rape If that′s okay Then by your side I′ll stay forever
Here I am standing up To say I want to fall in love with you Forever Here I am standing up To say that I want to fall in love
All our kids will play A sunless day The rain will come The rain always brings our hero All our kids will play A sunless day The rain will come The rain always brings our here
Ever carried the weight of another? For how long? I walk as far as they need to recover For how long? (ha!)
I want to carry a piece of who I was before So when I hit the wall, I really hit the wall I want to tear away the death again A whiter shade of fucking meth again I want to stick to clues, I want to come unglued I want to shape the world to fit the way you move Oh, should I listen for a dress size?
I owned up, I′ve grown up, do you remember me? I showed up and so what if I′m the used to be I′m here to tell you that I′m sorry I was sorry But I′m happy that you′re happy This is no longer about me
Trade rules, switch sides for your beautiful eyes Let him be you through your beautiful cries Let him hold you up so you can touch affordable skies Live your life just like a dream Without the pain of goodbyes Goodbye!
Ever carried the weight of another? For how long? I walk as far as they need to recover For how long?
I been a drunk disrespectful little street punk Unlock the back of my trunk You see, you take this bat And bash my head into the street again No-ones around so I keep beating it
Pull my hair back, look me in the eye There′s a self-destructive meaning in the bleeding of a guy It′s the guilt of what reality has given me Making sense of all mistakes and my stupidity And when you′re sick you seem to think You′ve failed eternally
And that the people you let in are only crumbling When you′re sick of thinking life in this recovery When my decision paved the road That lies in front of me
So to my friends that even call but I don′t call back I want you deep inside my heart upon a hill It seems to hide sometimes and run away and wonder I′m really sick of saying sorry but I will
Ever carried the weight of another? For how long? I walk as far as they need to recover For how long?
But are we scared to take the ride? Or dare to look inside? I′m floating far away (far away) I′m floating far away (leaving home) I′m floating far away (so far away) I′m floating far away
I want to learn to walk with others as an equal I want to treat the ones who love me with respect I want to tell the world I′ll give them all a piggyback And try to take away my negative effect I want to kiss the girl, I know I′ll never lie again I want to call my dad and tell him that I care I want to let my brother know He saved my life a thousand times Throughout the years he′s been my friend Who′s always there
The first born, my heart will call Truly A God-like boy of the sky The fog hissed away like a movie And serpents go home for the night The thundercloud rain hits the freeway The clowns put on makeup for show The nightfall, my skin crawl kind of evening And how the wind she blows How the wind she blows
[Chorus] I want you to come closer Come in closer. Come in closer. I want you to come in closer Come in closer. Come in closer. I want you to come in closer, in closer
Come dancing with devils Need not to know their names We′ll waltz like an army For the fear of our pain Our souls become useless As the day they were born In a rusted arm rocking chair Away from your storm
But still, the truth remains lethal A lie made by man Where my shoes become hammers And my words become sand Like a sour patch, a wedding batch Of roses you threw across my floor In the rusted arm rocking chair Away from your storm
When you holler baby When you holler at me What you want me to be When you holler baby When you holler at me What you want me to
I won′t be strong and I won′t brave I never stay Because you don′t treat me the right way I won′t be apart of this drawn out game I never stay Because you don′t treat me the right way
You′re holding my back against the sunshine You might not think its over But it′s over for me I need your reflection like a thin line You might not think its over But it′s over for
I won′t be strong and I won′t brave I never stay Because you don′t treat me the right way I won′t be apart of this drawn out game I never stay Because you don′t treat me the right way
You don′t treat me the right way
I won′t be strong and I won′t brave I never stay Because you don′t treat me the right way I won′t be apart of this drawn out game I never stay Because you don′t treat me the right way
I really need to talk with you I keep stepping on the vein That keeps my lifeline flowing thru I wanna be your perfect stick of glue But I don’t feel perfect at all Sad and insecure flaw
I find it hard to hold conversation I get sweaty sick and I wanna walk away Its not you its strictly me in this situation I’m wondering will it ever go away…just go away
sometimes I feel like weeping awake and when I’m sleeping perfecting how to put a game face on
this puzzle I’ve been keeping has been in hiding creeping out the closet door spilling out onto the floor
How long will I be picking up pieces How long will I be picking up my heart
I’ll be as honest as I feel I’m getting more paranoid and I’m hearing things And they never turn out real It feels like my heart is made of pure steel It’s just so heavy all the time
Yea I’m scared of death And I’m scared of living I gave up on the past cause it’s unforgiving I misplaced my trust
I watched my word begin to rust I’m a balloon about to bust I need a place for reliving
But sometimes I feel like weeping awake and when I’m sleeping perfecting how to put a game face on
this puzzle I’ve been keeping has been in hiding creeping out the closet door spilling out onto the floor
How long will I be picking up pieces How long will I be picking up my heart
How long (in another space and time) Will I be picking up pieces in the corner of my mind How long (its getting oh so hard to find) Keep picking up pieces in the corner of my mind But I still walk on
I′m sorry for the way I treated you I′m stuck in my ways to just run In the opposite way when things get comfortable I′ll keep on licking till your flavor is gone
[Chorus] It′s getting more impossible To keep a straight face And be trusted with I love you
Don′t trust my words when I′m in the bed with you I′ll bring the message, but the message gets lost Yeah you opened your legs and maybe I promised you You didin′t notice that my ankles were crossed
[Chorus]
Can you show me how to treat someone? I don′t recall ever learning how Because I keep fucking up
I′m just a normal boy That sank when I fell overboard My ship would leave the country But I′d rather swim ashore
Without a life that′s sadly stuck again Wish I was much more masculine Maybe then I could learn to swim Like ′fourteen miles away′
You′re floating up and down I spin, colliding into sound Like whales beneath me diving down I′m sinking to the bottom of my Everything that freaks me out The lighthouse beam has just run out I′m cold as cold as cold can be be
I want to swim away but don′t know how Sometimes it feels just like I′m falling in the ocean Let the waves up take me down Let the hurricane set in motion Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down Let the rain come down
Where is the coastguard I keep looking each direction For a spotlight, give me something I need something for protection Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine The jets, I′m sunk, I′m left behind I′m treading for my life believe me (How can I keep up this breathing)
Not knowing how to think I scream aloud, begin to sink My legs and arms are broken down With envy for the solid ground I′m reaching for the life within me How can one man stop his ending I thought of just your face Relaxed, and floated into space
I want to swim away but don′t know how Sometimes it feels just like I′m falling in the ocean Let the waves up take me down Let the hurricane set in motion Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down Let the rain come down Let the rain come down
Now waking to the sun I calculate what I had done Like jumping from the bow (yeah) Just to prove I knew how (yeah) It′s midnight′s late reminder of The loss of her, the one I love My will to quickly end it all So thought no end my need to fall
Into the ocean, end it all Into the ocean, end it all Into the ocean, end it all into the ocean...end it all
[Zayra] Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye) Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye) Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
I want to swim away but don′t know how Sometimes it feels just like I′m falling in the ocean Let the waves up take me down Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah) Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down Let the rain come down Let the rain come down
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye) (In to space) Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye) Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye) Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye) Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye) Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye) (I thought of just your face) Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye) Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye) Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye) Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
In the day by day collision Called the art of growing up There′s an innocence we look for in the stars To be taken back to younger days When there was no giving up On the people we held closest to our hearts
Yeah it is you that I remember in that glowing It is you that took my first away from me It is you I set my standards to... to every walk of life I haven′t met another you since you were with me.
[Chorus] A brief bout with a razorblade cut me I freaked out, thinking people didn′t love me I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me In letting go, I am so proud of what I′ve done
In a way, I failed religion I spit the wine from mouth to cup And I reached for something more than just your God Uncle, you spared not your children And while your praying hands are up There′s no forgiveness for you! You sick fuck!
It is you that I remember in their bedroom It is you that took their first away from them It is you they set their standards to You wounded them for life You were a preacher and suppose to be above men
Sing with me
[Chorus] A brief bout with a razorblade cut me I freaked out, thinking people didn′t love me I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me In letting go, I am so proud of what I′ve done
If I can′t crawl inside of you, I′m laughing with a broken face I stumble across my self esteem. But to picture the pleasure is making me want my space.
Understand... that God wrapped you like a bow. But in my head... There′s some shelves that need cleaning, from basement to ceiling, control.
If what you′re seeing is an open book, thats great ′cuz I′m an open book. But I′m real shy.
There′s a part of me seeking and desperatly needing to open up. That′s strange ′cuz I′m an open book, a confused boy.
I′m an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people. My heart while in its cage, is used to give and not receive a thing, But the only funny thing is that I dont know how to give myself advice.
I′ve got this post dramatic thing I′ve got this tattoo of a ring that lies around my wedding finger and thats where I want to state this claim. That I′ve got to learn to live and dream before I go and get myself in love.
In love.
Theres Zoloft, Welbutrin, theres Paxil thats proven, no side effects. But the rest left unnamed ′cuz they worked like a charm on me.
But when your savings is drying, you can′t stop from crying you′ve got to suck it up. You′re not her buttercup, you′re not her favorite book.
The sweet and somber pigeon wings, cant we all recall when MaMa and PaPa, were the sweet tooth Christmas Ball. A Picturesque holiday family. Of course I was small and all i knew was my Grandpa, But I really didn′t know him at all.
My blood, my cousins my calvary. A piece of them gone but still I feel them strong, When I reach for Daivid ′cuz our Grandpa is gone. I shout out.... I got love for the family. My Mother′s a daoll and my Father can stop any brawl, Pucker up I′d like to kiss you all.
Open your eyes... a new song ′cuz the family′s wrong, So don′t lecture me. But as far as I can see, the stepmom, yeah the widow′s palm is what′s crushing me, and this family. Beyond my time I′s beyond my time
Trampoline I′m your Trampoline Oh you jump so hard but I always catch your fall So now I′ll just Hide away (you know I think I will) Hide away Oh, I run so fast but I always lose them all
I wish I could go to sleep and wake up with amnesia And try to forget the things I′ve done I wish I knew how to keep the promises I made you But life i guess it goes on Yeah I know it goes on You see I′ve learned it goes on
But then I′ll hang us on the wall And I′ll crawl in the open side And I′m blind to it all So why don′t you Crawl in my open side and become blind to it all
You know I think it′s time to pray For the contortion, my abortion That I somehow shoved away I think it′s right for me (yeah I think it′s right for me) When I was young I was stung And somehow lost God′s faith
I wish I could go to sleep and wake up with amnesia And try to forget the things I′ve done I wish I knew how to keep these promises I made But I guess life goes on Yeah I know it goes on You see I′ve learned it goes on
Way back when I must have sinned I break down profound, beginning, end Head trip re-grip what doesn′t mend But I′m wishing this amnesia would kick in [repeat 2x]
I dreamt you seduced me Just walked away I dreamt you inspired Then rewired what I say I dreamt you spread your bottom wings And pulled me to the bed But then I woke up feeling nauseous You danced around my head
Chorus: Tell me How long, how long have I been down? How long, how long have I been down? How long, how long have I been down? Down, Down
I dreamt you burned my fingers Yes, an automatic sting I dreamt you called me beautiful Then asked to hear me sing I dreamt your singing invited me To crawl within your space But then I woke up feeling nauseous Girl, you danced around my face
Chorus: Tell me How long, how long have you been down? How long, how long have you been down? How long, how long have you been down? Down, Down
Why can′t we work when we both try? We try, we try, we try, we try Why can′t this work, when we both try? Why can′t it work when we both try we try, we try, we try, how we try And how we try
I meant to sympathize I want to be your friend I know apologizing wont erase the end But I learn that moving on, is where I must begin Because when our colors mixed We couldn′t fix the way they wouldn′t blend
Chorus: So tell me How long, how long have we been down? How long, how long have we been down? How long, how long have we been down? Down, down, yeah
And I wish that only greatness follow you around I hope to God, you find a way from down When you do I hope you share it all with me Please try to understand, yeah to understand me Just try to understand me, yeah understand me
How long, how long have we been down yeah. Down, down, down, yeah
The 21st. comes so soon every month An anniversary of not being strong enough You′re much too co-dependent A shrink is recommended
Your father tells you to try to be responsable Your mother loves you, but not the way she did before Your brother′s torn to pieces But no one knows the reasons
He loves the winter, but it smells too much like memories The ornament she gave him still hangs from his Christmas tree A jingle bell will glisten That′s when she loved to kiss him
So say farewell to all the little things she would say and do The morning, sleepy eyed girl waves goodbye to you You′re much to co-dependent A shrink is recommended Yeah...
But yeah, who are the people you hang around with? Who are the ones you′re gonna call? When you feel like ending it all? But yeah, who are the people you hang around with? Who are the ones you′re gonna call? When you feel like ending it all?
But I can′t bring you down But I can′t bring you down But I can′t bring you down But I can′t bring you down
But I can′t bring you down But I can′t bring you down But I can′t bring you down
So you dropped me Held me by my feet and let me go I fell between the seat, but nothing broke I′ve yet to feel that brilliant afterglow The one I knew of years ago Now I′m twisted Twisted from the waist and spun around Promised only sky but given ground Realized the makeup is for a clown The clown I knew of months ago
[Chorus] I only wanted to be somebody So fucking bad, I came unglued I only wanted to be somebody So here we are now, face to face And I′m fucking you
So you caught me! Wishing I were better than the rest You hit me and left bruises on my chest And when I wouldn′t cheat I spit upon your test The test I tore up weeks ago And now my fist is My fist is for your face to cock the jaw When I begin to rise, you start to fall Now you know how it feels to drop the ball The ball I threw back days ago
[Chorus]
So I′ll just stand right here for now I should have won, but how? I break a smart ass grin Who let the loser win? Let′s break a smart ass grin Let′s let the losers win!
Comitted at twenty two Just to get over you My belly aches blue Lorazepam flu I′m down for the count Always three times a day Sometimes four A bee stings right through the arm The high swing I ride upon My eyes can′t quite focus on The nurse with my Lucky Charms Well a two step was just a laugh Our boundaries were broke in half It′s a good thing to know As you walk into group for the show
knock-knock on the window pane My smoke break, the hour rang My quiet roommate sleeps the same Woke up when dinner came The man′s no more than forty old Arrived scared two days ago A family of earth and gold But still nottheless alone I learned quick. Knew what to say Then three angels walked my way In Spanish tongue they knelt to pray And said "God keep him safe From screaming voices" They became my family Outstretched their hands are on my head You know, I can feel them breathing They actually knelt down and prayed for me They actually knelt down and prayed for me
Don′t you dare put me on H.R.S.A Does self abuse extend your hospital stay? I think I′ll lie a bit Lord I won′t cry over anything Over anything at all I won′t cry over anything at all
A blackout in the room again a busted lip and broken skin. I wake up in the bathroom and dare not bother asking why the mirror′s craked and all I see are shards of glass inside of me.
There′s voices there to dare me, my father′s here to scare me. My mother sits beyond the door she′s curled up crying on the floor, look at what her son′s done.
When the weight of all the world′s gone wrong. It′s gone wrong again. Gone fucking wrong. It′s gone wrong again.
Well liars they leave a guilty trail. And let me tell you something people, I′ve been lying for fucking years. That must be why I′m standing in this space. Disregarding that I′ve created these monsters they′re on fucking both of my sides, So I wipe the blood from both of their eyes. From all four of their eyes.
And while I wait for wounds to heal I see you by the window sil, your heart′s torn out a plastic spoon when honesty lit up that room so I stole the pillowcase to clean this mess I′ve made of someones dream. Now you′ve seen what I′ve done,
when the weight of all the world′s gone wrong. It′s gone wrong again gone fucking wrong it′s gone all wrong again.
This room is old and wise I fall onto the bed and wonder, "How did I get here?" The little boy who would argue with a tree just fucking thump his head and he′ll turn back to normal.
Now why is that what I see? Don′t bother trusting don′t bother waiting don′t bother changing things that won′t give into changing just let me go away. I′m packed whenever I′m down whenever.
I close my eyes and I smile Knowing that everything is alright To the core Close that door Is this happening? My breathe is on your hair I′m unaware That you opened the blinds and let the city in God, you held my hand As we stand Taking in everything.
And I knew it from the start So my arms are open wide Your head is on my stomach And we′re trying so hard not to fall asleep
But Here we are On this 18th floor balcony... we′re both flying away.
We talked about mom′s and dad′s About family′s pasts Getting to know where we came from Our hearts were on display For all to see I can′t believe this is happening. I raised my hand as if to show you I was yours That I was so yours for the taking I′m still so your for the taking Thats when I felt the wind pick up I grabbed the rail while choking up These words to say and then you kissed me... I knew from the start So my arms are open wide And your head is on my stomach And we′re trying so hard not to fall asleep
But here we are On this 18th floor balcony...
I knew from the start So my arms are open wide Your head is on my stomach And we′re trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are On this 18th floor balcony... we′re both flying away.
And I′ll try to sleep to keep you in my dreams so I can bring you home with me and I′ll try to sleep and you keeping you in my...dreams
I knew it from the start My arms are open wide Your head is on my stomach We′re not going to sleep But here we are On this 18th floor balcony...we′re both.. flying away