Breathe, reflect in between my rhymes Don′t know if tomorrow will be my time Release, ye whole mind body and soul Up in your zone this world′s out a control Cause If I die before I wake Pray to God my soul he takes I got one life, one heart, one mind I′m not ready die, let′s stay alive
Why would I lie if I know it′s true? If I′m wrong then I′m wrong then I say that′s cool It′s the law of the earth that′ll kill me first It′s the God of the universe who saved my birth Not cocky, not watching, I don′t care if yall diss I got 100 verses 40 songs take ye pick Average man lives to 65, I got 9 lives Courtesy of Christ I′m a use all 9 So find me atrocious, I rhyme with emotion I′m floating in here you better come up for air You got cash, clothes, a chick, Zero percent With crack up ye nose bro it don′t make sense And it′s been that way you′re not D.O.A Yo, did you hear me this life is getting scary Know what you′re about not just knowledge of self You got one chance to play, and ye cards are dealt
Breathe, reflect in between my rhymes Don′t know if tomorrow will be my time Release, ye whole mind body and soul Up in your zone this world′s out a control Cause If I die before I wake Pray to God my soul he takes I got one life, one heart, one mind I′m not ready die, let′s stay alive
I can′t be held down, to your worldly styles Get up and bounce Ricochet off my sound I ain′t ready to die I got mileage to ride I stopped playing with yall, Between hating my God Figured him on my side, I could fly or Walk the waters, Heal his daughters you′ve never seen an artist To spit this truth, this year, kill fear I′m the new pioneer, and I′m still a kid
Breathe, reflect in between my rhymes Don′t know if tomorrow will be my time Release, ye whole mind body and soul Up in your zone this world′s out a control Cause if I die before I wake Pray to God my soul he takes I got one life, one heart, one mind I′m not ready die, let′s stay alive
I ain′t got time to waste, this be the last one The outcome of life I′m unsure, I′m not done Leave yall a message, and answer some questions The who what why we here Why′s there fear, if I die, do I rise like birds of the air? My opinion is clear, in position to care I can′t give it away give it away What they say can′t make or break me Save me before I start changing Earthlings I want to hear you′ll sing Stretch ye life out long, I wanna see it bling Cause if I die I know what′s on the other side One life, one God, and I′m flying high
Dreams are still alive They don′t ever die Close your eyes and imagine it right now We got to keep dreaming we giving life meaning Staying clear of the lies
I wasn′t suppose to be here, compose and flow here Perform for your ears saying ah yeah′s My dream was to skate, Cali calling my name Who′d a thought my foot would break, me limping in pain? I ate my own pride, when I started to rhyme Mamma told me ye got to grow up can′t skate all your life Picture me history is shaping me sifting me, Changing me to a man, Xing out all my plans Not what I wanted my dreams was so different I deal with what I′m giving not trying to be him or him
Dreams are still alive They don′t ever die Close your eyes and imagine it right now We got to keep dreaming we giving life meaning Staying clear of the lies
I used to fantasize a lot about what I don′t got Chick on my arm even a necklace with a cross I didn′t have money, no dad and only mommy To raise two kids, even my toes looked funny I thought I missed out when really I′m on clouds I did my work while all my friends went out I didn′t party much I think I touched drugs once My buddies all laughing at me about that Christ Jesus stuff Now if you seen us how the cards of switched hands They sleep at their parents while I′m living in first class Every night I′d always pray to God for tomorrow Who′d thought I′d be married lying next to a model Crazy how I elevated everyday celebrating Dreams do come true exercise patience
Life is kind a bitter ain′t it, it′s full a pain and changes Parking tickets that tick us off and leave you tainted Heart pumping, your thinking of jumping Devils hunting don′t do it cousin You don′t know what is forth coming Brighter days a higher raise Light the fire play the game Regroup or hide ye face That′s why I′m authentic that′s why ye need effort Credit is deserved, I re-worked my world If everything worked out the way I first wanted I′d a married the wrong chick and I′d been stuck think Life′s embarrassed ye, laughed and stared at ye In the end it only builds up your character
You know what I′m saying man, Everybody′s got an opinion in this industry You got to just do what you know, don′t let know one tell you nothing, Hold on to your dreams and feel it, go for it
You won′t call, won′t talk What′s wrong with ye We used talk, go for walks Now I don′t see ye It′s not the same, like the days When we used to meet up You′ve changed in a way Like you got secrets You won′t pick up, your mom says ye distant And I can′t figure this out without your help I want to know ye, or wanna not know ye I try to get close ye keep pushing me over
Why won′t you talk to me? I′d tell you anything Oh don′t push me away I want to know you I want to know you I′m through with questioning I thought you felt the same No don′t push me away I want to know your thoughts I want to know your mind I want to know you I want know you Let me out this place Let me into your space place, I want to know you, I want to know you
It′s been two weeks 3 days, I′m not sleeping I had a dream you were flying this plane leaving I got a feeling it was real and I wasn′t dreaming Is it me or not seeing you, has got me freaking? My self esteem fleeing, a piece of me missing My friends say I should bail while I′m still breathing You got to call me, let me know what you′re thinking I′m free falling, cold, all alone sinking
Why won′t you talk to me? I′d tell you anything Oh don′t push me away I want to know you I want to know you I′m through with questioning I thought you felt the same No don′t push me away I want to know your thoughts I want to know your mind I want to know you I want know you Let me out this place Let me into your space place, I want to know you, I want to know you
Sorry this is not in person, but this is not working I wrote this, hope you get it Cause it′s not worth it Loved people love people Hurt people hurt people, You hurt me and it cut lethal I tried so hard, I was so young I flied so far thinking it was real love Now I′m gone so long girl I′ve moved on I thank God cause he put me with a real one
Why won′t you talk to me? I′d tell you anything Oh don′t push me away I want to know you I want to know you I′m through with questioning I thought you felt the same No don′t push me away I want to know your thoughts I want to know your mind I want to know you I want know you Let me out this place Let me into your space place, I want to know you, I want to know you
It′s funny I never thought that I′d be homeless I used to walk by them, now I′m living on the corners Stretching for a touch of a hand, a dollar bill or a change Give me your sandwich bag, man I′ll do anything With thoughts of desperation my heart′s racing I′m not stargazing I could die of starvation Hallucinated from the day′s wasted Lost track of time while my mind aging People looking at me like a lost patient Like I′m already dead why they all hating Did I choose this life, or life choose me I ran away at sweet 16 mommy do you miss me, this is Krissy
So I run, and I run, and I ran and I ran praying Maybe some day we meet again Cause it hurts when you hurt, and I hurt and I feel, Like I′m healed can we all just make amends I run and I run and I run, and I run
Goodbye to the world, goodbye to my girl Say hello to my home the street corner It′s absurd every word that was spoken It must come alive cause my life is still broken Wondering did I miss it, what mistake did I make? Can I fix it? These streets ′ve gone ballistic This isn′t what I thought it would be, where′s daddy Is he still mad at me, I wonder would he have me Back in the home, back in the zone, back where I can′t eat Where′s there′s heat and use a phone Cause it hurts and I know I never said goodbye I ran away I thought like anything I could fly
So I run, and I run, and I ran and I ran praying maybe some day we meet again Cause it hurts when you hurt, and I hurt and I feel, Like I′m healed can we all just make amends I run and I run and I run, and I run
Mom and dad are you there, are you listening I want to come home, but scared of the mess I′m in Please forgive me of the things I committed Against you against me, our family tree And I know we haven′t spoke in so long, I was so wrong To think I could live on, on my own accord I′m a take the train home, but I need to know If you′ll welcome me back through your life′s door? Show me a sign with a red ribbon, hang one on the side of the train building And if I see it than I′ll know that your still willing, And if not I won′t ever call or visit I′ll pretend that I′m re-living the beginning, Like when we used talk in the kitchen, without all the fights & friction This is me wishing, one of your ex children Picturing praying that you got the same feelings, I′m running
So I run, and I run, and I ran and I ran praying maybe some day we meet again Cause it hurts when you hurt, and I hurt and I feel, like I′m healed can we all just make a mends I run and I run and I run, and I run
Last night got a little crazy I don′t remember, woke up spun with the pasties My friends say I was tweaked out, Passed out on a dirty coach, still in the house It kind a scares me, I don′t know Am out of control, always waking up still in my clothes I wrote a note that said goodbye to pain, good bye to shame But couldn′t find a way, I just cry for days I′m so depressed, soak in wet, I can′t rest These thoughts just beat me to death I′m un-kept I thought of a song my mom used to sing in church But it′s been so long I can′t remember the words
Every time you run, every time you hide Every time it hurts, every time you cry Every time you run away, every time you hide your face And it feels so far away, I′m right here, with you
I keep sleeping in don′t want to wake up I keep hearing from the landlord pay up Hide my face in my pillow till the sunsets Hung over and I haven′t seen a pay check I took a job downtown at the factory I was hired and fired with no salary I keep running from responsibility It′s seems impossible, the pressure is hitting me I know I need to man up, or sit down Stand up and get out of this crowd I thought of a song my mom used to sing in church But it′s been so long I can′t remember the words
Every time you run, every time you hide Every time it hurts, every time you cry Every time you run away, every time you hide your face And it feels so far away, I′m right here, with you
Well I know I′m not ready to die, but I′ve Sure thought about the meaning of life Cause I can′t seem to find a purpose for me It′s just the choices and I fail to proceed I got a “get up, get up, get up, get up Get up, get up, get up, get up, get up I hear voices in my mind, one′s a devil, one′s Jesus I can feel it can you help me find the pieces Like an angel on my shoulder, you hold the Joy of the Lord raising up a soldier You gave me the song my mom used to sing in church I promised not to quit and I remembered the words I promised not to quit and I remembered the words
Every time you run, every time you hide Every time it hurts, every time you cry Every time you run away, every time you hide your face And it feels so far away, I′m right here, with you
Crying and hiding this feeling Running and fighting for freedom
This is the last time, I′ll cry lullabies All night can′t sleep I hear the floors creek I feel shadows in my room My friends find another bruise I′m a end up on the news I just don′t know what to do God I′m calling you Send an angel send two I want a move but I′m trapped in the outer room I know you hear me clearly I′m weary Come and fill me with your power heal me
It seems impossible for me to let this go Feel like an animal, I′m ready to lose control Take everything you need, take every part of me Take every part of me give me some room to breathe
I got to get away Got a break away Save me Got to find away Got to break the chains Take me Before I lose control Before I lose control It seems impossible It′s not impossible
I′m tired so tired of walking through this fire If you want to find me I′ll be here in my room I′m thinking you′re drinking, Need to get out before you start swinging Wish I could show you all the pain inside me
It seems impossible Crying and hiding this feeling Running and hiding from freedom For me to loose control Crying and hiding this feeling Running and hiding from freedom
I′m so tired a walking this line through the fire If you want to find me I′m in my room retired Hiding this feeling I′m thinking you′re drinking Sinking deep ducking under your swinging, out a commission Living cold day′s hallways filled with the mistakes Wish I could show you all the pain inside it′s caused me It used to be a house, a home now it′s neither yo So I′m leaving with the cross strapped to my soul
There′ve been days I lost my way and backed down, Time I wasted, placed you in the background, I can′t take it, parade and fake this, Separated tainted, it′s got me on the run now I don′t want to be on the run now, Create a love in me I′ll put it all down Shake the pain, replace it let me run now Faith is waiting I′m facing what′s in front now
It′s not like I′m not trying to work it out, If things are so much harder when you′re not around
I′m not always who you think I am Sometimes I feel like I′m the renegade And I can′t just sit back and watch it fade This time I hope you see, I′m not the enemy
I′m gonna make it, shake it on the jump now I′m gonna break it, fade it put the gun down Amazing grace, mistakes erased come round I′m gonna do what it takes, remain and run in the race Saved a wretch like me you never let down I can see the dream I′ll never let drowned I′m not a saint but hey I′m up above ground I′m now awake I′ll chase I′ll never run out
It′s not like I′m not trying to work it out, If things are so much harder when you′re not around
I′m not always who you think I am Sometimes I feel like I′m the renegade And I can′t just sit back and watch it fade This time I hope you see, I′m not the enemy
I′m not a renegade, I′m not a renegade, no matter what you say, I′m not a renegade, I′m not a renegade, no matter what you say, I′m not a renegade I′m not a renegade, I′m not a renegade, no matter what you say, I′m not a renegade! I′m not a renegade!
It′s not like I′m not trying to work it out, If things are so much harder when you′re not around
I′m not always who you think I am Sometimes I feel like I′m the renegade And I can′t just sit back and watch it fade This time I hope you see I′m not the enemy
I′m not a renegade, I′m not a renegade, no matter what you say, I′m not a renegade I′m not a renegade, I′m not a renegade, no matter what you say, I′m not a renegade!