I used to be a stereotype Half alive with half open eyes With a one track mind And a flawed design Feeling like I was lost At sea at only the age of 19 Floating around in alcohol and apathy Taking in too much caffeine and nicotine If we make it outta here alive Just say you won′t look back to see Just who we left behind (there might not be a next time)
With all the ups and downs and turn arounds (might not be a next time) To the breaking up to breaking down (might not be a next time) Yeah we were the ones to say (there might not be a next time)
I used to be a stereotype Someone you′d never recognize With fingers so yellow That they matched the yellow skies And there was a few things I memorized From all those blurry times Like bottles clinking under blinking signs And a few last words from long lost friends of mine If we make it out of here alive Just say you won′t look back to see Just who we left behind (there might not be a next time)
With all the ups and downs and turn arounds (might not be a next time) To the breaking up to breaking down (might not be a next time) Yeah we were the ones to say (there might not be a next time)
And if we make it outta here alive (if we make outta here alive) Just say you won′t look back to see Just who we left behind Just who we left behind
After all the fuck ups and fallouts (there might not be a next time) With all the ups and downs and turn arounds (might not be a next time) Through all the breaking up to breaking down (there might not be a next time) Yeah we were the ones to say (there might not be a next time)
There might not be a next time (might not be a next time)
Momma please stop cryin, I can′t stand the sound Your pain is painful and its tearin′ me down I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed I told dad you didn′t mean those nasty things you said
You fight about money, bout me and my brother And this I come home to, this is my shelter It ain′t easy growin up in World War III Never knowin what love could be, you′ll see I don′t want love to destroy me like it has done my family
Can we work it out? Can we be a family? I promise I′ll be better, Mommy I′ll do anything Can we work it out? Can we be a family? I promise I′ll be better, Daddy please don′t leave
Daddy please stop yellin, I can′t stand the sound Make mama stop cryin, cuz I need you around My mama she loves you, no matter what she says its true I know that she hurts you, but remember I love you, too
I ran away today, ran from the noise, ran away Don′t wanna go back to that place, but don′t have no choice, no way It ain′t easy growin up in World War III Never knowin what love could be, well I′ve seen I don′t want love to destroy me like it did my family
Can we work it out? Can we be a family? I promise I′ll be better, Mommy I′ll do anything Can we work it out? Can we be a family? I promise I′ll be better, Daddy please don′t leave
In our family portrait, we look pretty happy Let′s play pretend, let′s act like it comes naturally I don′t wanna have to split the holidays I don′t want two addresses I don′t want a step-brother anyways And I don′t want my mom to have to change her last name
In our family portrait we look pretty happy We look pretty normal, let′s go back to that In our family portrait we look pretty happy Let′s play pretend, act like it goes naturally
In our family portrait we look pretty happy (Can we work it out? Can we be a family?) We look pretty normal, let′s go back to that (I promise I′ll be better, Mommy I′ll do anything)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy (Can we work it out? Can we be a family?) Let′s play pretend act and like it comes so naturally (I promise I′ll be better, Daddy please don′t leave)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy (Can we work it out? Can we be a family?) We look pretty normal, let′s go back to that I promise I′ll be better, Daddy please don′t leave)
Daddy don′t leave Daddy don′t leave Daddy don′t leave Turn around please Remember that the night you left you took my shining star? Daddy don′t leave Daddy don′t leave Daddy don′t leave Don′t leave us here alone
Mom will be nicer I′ll be so much better, I′ll tell my brother Oh, I won′t spill the milk at dinner I′ll be so much better, I′ll do everything right I′ll be your little girl forever I′ll go to sleep at night
Two men entered and I thought I was dreaming. I heard the sounds of what were laughter. And expected the door to slam off the hinges. The dark initiates my fear and I tell myself nothing can hurt me. Nothing can hurt me. The blanket weighs 300 pounds pinning me on my stomach. Although my eyes are open, I see nothing but a spiraling glow that radiates an alarm clock on a nightstand. Hands are gripping me. The sheets are twisted, I′m suffocating. I smell nail polish. I picture my mother out in the garden on a spring day planting new strawberry seeds. The earth aroma as she turns the soil lingers. And I imagine my life as a princess. Nothing can hurt me. It′s 5:47 a.m. and the sun looks as though it′s just about to defeat the night sky. A battle between good and evil that rages on through centuries unnoticed. My night gawn is taggled above my hips. I went to sleep with panties on and I smell blood. My breasts are exposed and sore. One of them has bite marks. Blinding light from the bathroom crushes my eyes. I try to stand up and the weight of the world buckles my knees. Nothing can hurt me. The dawn breaks and this veil I carry around for secrecy is about to melt. Something inside my veins explode. And I realize I′m not looking at a portrait now. We are all living in it
Oh, the humanity. Oh, the perjury. Tell me how it feels not to know that your children are safe at night. Dear father, do i care? I′m leaving you, Goodby.
Does it feel familiar to you? Does it make you calm inside? Does it feel familiar to you? Does it make you calm inside?
It′s safe to say your life′s a disgrace. This is the hope: Create the sin. Build your hope signal, Fill my dreams. That you missed the future on your knees saying : "But what will happen if the future is wrong? From the youth looking back".
Is this the lair of the fray. Or adventures of suicides. Left for a better life, Left for the dinosaurs.
Do you think I had have another way To change my pain & your punishment Forget me please, take away your bate Someday you will close your fate in crate I’m the time, I’m the times Never found dead things Never dyeing here And scream Home Hope Hole I come to leave this place Going to fuck this all And come to leave this place I’m going to find my home